"Rickenbacker"

  
     In my mind, I am the only friend I've ever had.
Its almost as if I'm isolated, and everyone else is just a blur of repeated sentences and personalities.  I watch them, laugh with them, even enjoy life with them, but they're at a distance, across a gap that can never be fully closed.  Usually its very ignorable, but on occasion the feeling surfaces.  Bringing me to a new all time low each and every time. 

     I suppose it comes back to the my distrust of humanity in general.  But what excuse do I have for my mistrust that makes me any different from anyone else who lives a normal life from day to day?  Absolutely nothing.  I can't sit about for the rest of my life blaming the people who robbed me of happiness.  And what sort of man would I be if I let them take any joy from me in the bloody first place, hm? 

     Simple reasoning rejects the feelings of apathy, distrust... isolation.  But the reasoning's of a sincere mind very rarely can change something you have engraved deep in your heart from different experiences.  Emotion trumps logical thought almost every time. 

     So, I wonder what I am to do about it.  I really don't know.  I suspect it will be something I try to overcome for the rest of my life.  That's perfectly normal... I think...

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   what do i do when there is nothing to do?
i plague dearest xanga people with silly life things. :)

so here i've laid out some rules of retail.  they are for you, your mother and your father. 

rule #1: if you think your life sucks? the life of a retailer might suck more.  so suck it up and be really nice to the poor soul, he/she loves you deep inside.  maybe. ;)

rule #2: if you unfold an article of clothing and don't fold it back, there is no disdain that can compare to the retailers' at that exact moment in time.  it doesn't matter how nice you are at that point, you are scum.
:)

rule #3: DON"T leave your McDonalds meal/coke can/coffee cup on a shelf. the retailer finds it disgruntling, and vulgar.  the retailer is working at a clothing joint in order to avoid picking up gross cups that have had some person's big fat lips all over 'em. 

rule #5: when you go into the fitting room with barrels and barrels full of clothes, you MUST take all of that back out again. doing otherwise does not leave a good impression on anyone. and don't ask the retailer if its ok to do so either.  he will, for fear of his job, undoubtedly say "oh no don't worry about it, thats what im here for".  abuse, pure abuse my dear. :)

rule #6: when the retailer asks you how you're doing, just answer like your paying attention.  you really wouldn't believe how many people don't even do that much.  once you've answered, just smile. :) he won't think you're flirting.

rule #7: never dump clothes in the middle of the store because you are no longer interested in purchasing them. chances are that no one will see you do it, but at the end of the day, someone will be very sad. :|

rule #8: when you are woman, seek out or ask for a woman's assistance... the male retailer does not understand why your hips are like they are, nor does he understand why you're mad at him because your clothes didn't fit like you wanted them too.  If you're a guy it doesn't matter who you ask... girls will tell you what they saw Brad Pitt wearing most likely, and there's a 50% chance that another guy will lead you farther down the path of having the inability to match your socks with your belt or something like that. :)  so, considering all of the clothing predators that a man has to deal with, its probably better that you find a mannequine and copy him. :)

rule #9: if you've been waiting in line for a sale day, you have absolutely no reason to be angry about it. if you're angry about waiting, don't shop for deals. and don't take it out on the cashier either... its probably his first day.  :)

rule #10: never, ever tell the retailer how awesome his boss is... you've never seen the boss behind closed doors...

    and there you have it! if you abide by just those rules, you will be loved anywhere and everywhere you shop, heck you might get free stuff at one point or another. :D 

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So here's an update.

    I'm beginning the recording of my music demo tonight at 5:30, i'm very enthusiastic about it, really just absolutely thrilled.  Besides that, I'm thinking of quitting Old Navy and getting a job at J Crew.  Beastly, is it not?  Haha.

     On another musical note, I'm playing at a coffee house, and helping with worship at my new Bible study.  Most Bible studies have a tendency to suck, but this one happens to be awesome.  Mostly because of the people, though. I really love them. 

     I'm watching the election very closely in these last few days, and the polls, though almost completely unreliable, are actually tightening up.  Most likely because of some the... slightly less intelligent things the Obama side has been spewing out over the past few weeks.   Every time they let ole' Joe Biden out, they spend the next few days trying to clean up his controversial mess that he leaves behind.  At this point, we've literally got Obama saying one thing, and then Joe denying Obama ever said it.  Which is just flat out hilarious when you get down to it.  So i can't wait to see what happens, though I look on the outcome with apprehensive trepidation.  Should Obama be elected, we can expect extreme demographic change in our America.  Not good change either, nope.

     I voted for my first time this year. It was absolutely fantastic!  Yeah, i had so much fun i want to do it again...
But Acorn wasn't anywhere around.   Bummer. 

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